Monday, July 18, 2011
This will probably take a few entries for me to complete the story but I spent all day yesterday with Carolyn. Our day ended with us sleeping together (just sleep no sex) on my boat. It was both pleasurable and frustrating at the same time. It feels like we are moving towards intimacy but when I make a move she resists me. She will let me touch her, holds my hand and look at her but she refuses to kiss me which is a real show stopper for me. It almost feels like she wants me to force it. I hope it's just a fear of all that has happened to her over the last year or so and she doesn't want to let me in. I'll give some more time but sooner or later I'll need to make something happen or I go a little nuts.