Now it's all about Carolyn. She joined me for some wine while we watched the day turn into night at the dock yesterday. It was almost perfect. Nice sunset and a soft breeze. Except nothing happened.
I got a vibe from her that she wants to keep it a friendship thing between us. A lot of our conversation revolved around how losses. Her marriage is weighing very heavy on her mind. Her last boyfriend, Andy dying last year is also a constant topic. It makes it very hard to get romantic if I can't steer the conversation away from those things.
At least we are making plans. We talked about getting together on Friday night to see some outside music. We even talked about going to check out some wineries out east some weekend. But when I got a little close to her she kind of moved away. She has never struck me as shy so I'm starting to feel like she just isn't feeling it. Maybe she senses my desperation or maybe she feels she just isn't able to get close to anyone right now but when we said good night all I got was a quick little peck on the cheek and she was gone.
I know I need to be more assertive as I was with Doreen but at least with her there was a certain amount of encouragement. So while Carolyn came when I invited her and she stayed a long time like she was enjoying herself I am also looking at this as more of the same. The more I like someone the less likely I can make things happen. But we will see. She has to know I'm looking for more than being friends. Is it too soon to walk away?