Last night I did a whole lot of nothing. Which always means I think too much, never a good thing. As you may know from reading this I tend to obsess a little too much. I'm working on that but for now it is what it is.
I'd almost forgotten. It was a long time ago but I do remember it did happen. You are wonder what? I did once try to kiss Carolyn. It must have been 5 years ago. I'd just met her and it was similar to what I'm feeling now. At that time she was telling me her marriage was over and seemed like she was interested in me. So when I tried to kiss her she backed away and did a 180 on me. All of a sudden she was not so single. So it was at that point where I pretty much blew her off. Since then she has actually ended her marriage and then took up with this guy Andy. I'm not sure but I think Andy gave her some kind of engagement ring. So over the last 4 or 5 years whenever I saw her I would just say hello and keep on going.
So now she is truly unattached and all of a sudden she is back. She has no husband and no boyfriend. There are probably men in her life but she has gone out of her way to give me the impression she is alone. There is a little voice in my head that says she is just wanting attention and I need to be a little wary. I keep wondering what would have happened if I had told Chris to go home. Maybe he saved me from disaster or maybe he c-blocked me. Water under the bridge.