Monday, October 4, 2010
I got a new text at 5:30 from Coleen. She wanted to go for dinner with me. I said I was too busy which is partially true. I was out running errands getting my things together for my trip. Her response was "Ok nevermind". I don't know. It feels awful just freezing her out of my life but I'm not wanting to have a conversation about it. Certainly not having dinner as I have no appetite anyway. She doesn't love me so it's hurting me more but I'm just so tired of being fake.