Saturday

I know I put in an entry earlier today but I think today is worth another entry. I went to the boat at around noon to do my spring preparation.

So I had a conversation about my day with one of my favorite bog friends and told her about my day and it has so much more detail than I could do again so rewad it and enjoy;

mikeg516: I've had the most interesting day

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

oh hows that?

mikeg516: so last night's wine tasting was good but I've been suffering from an all day hangover

mikeg516: I spent the dat getting the boat clean

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

damn I hate hangovers  

mikeg516: it involves lots of polishing in the hot sun

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

oh no I bet that kinda sucked  

mikeg516: actually it's a lobor of love

mikeg516: I worked alone for 4 houres

mikeg516: I'm on the boat ready to quit for the day and my cell rings - it's Roberta ... Roberta is great but not a girl I can date

mikeg516: but she comes down to the boat and I wanted company

mikeg516: so she stops down and says hello .

mikeg516: She sits down and not 5 minutes after she gets there who do I see in the parking lot, but Coleen ... wow - when it rains it pours

mikeg516: but wait there is more

mikeg516: Coleen is just stopping by to say hello - she has her parents in the car - they are like 80 sonething years old

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

lol I like that when it rains it pours  

mikeg516: yea - I cant just have one thing at a time

mikeg516: so i don't know what Coleen thought when she saw Roberta either

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

so she didn't stay long only dropped in to say hi?   

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

ohhhhhh  

mikeg516: like it wasn't a date but she doesn't know that

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

yeah  

mikeg516: there's so m,uch more\

mikeg516: so Coleen leaves but says she will stop down later of call ... she didnt do either but I found her later

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

did she say anything about it  

mikeg516: so Coleen leaves and I hang with Roberta for an hour then she leaves too

mikeg516: and wait there's more

mikeg516: I cleaned up and i was about to go ... must have been about 5:30 \

mikeg516: and I see Lisa and Carmine coming down the boat ramp

mikeg516: More wine and another hour goes by

mikeg516: I finally leave about 6:30 and I go to the bar

mikeg516: I see Coleen there

mikeg516: She was talking to an older guy ... I wont say how old but he is for sure on social security

mikeg516: and I sat and we had casual converstopm

mikeg516: have I started ot bore you yet?

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

no not at all  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

I was just waiting to see what was going on  

mikeg516: realize it is 10 o'clock and I'm home so this is not a story of great success but still not failure either

mikeg516: \so anyway

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

lol  

mikeg516: what is Coleen? doing w/o her boyfriend on Saturday night

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

so did she look like she was jealous or anything when she saw u with her ?  

mikeg516: she was trying to get him on the phone and he wasn't pivking up

mikeg516: what she saw me on the boat with Roberta?

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

yeah  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

maybe I'm getting it mixed up alil lol  

mikeg516: Roberta said she looked a little confused

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

ohhh  

mikeg516: oh no

mikeg516: it was an awkward moment

Saturday Pt 2

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

hmm  

mikeg516: though not so much for me

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

I wish I could just talk to her for u lol just stright out with it lol and she would say yes ... wouldn't that be so much easier lol but I'm playing  

mikeg516: I mean Coleen could see us on the boat from her car and wasn't coming down right away but I waved her down and made it seem okay

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

oh ok  

mikeg516: oh - I'm getting therre

mikeg516: so anyway

mikeg516: Coleen is trying to get her boyfriend o the fone and he wasn't pivking up

mikeg516: and I was making a joke of it trying to realise some tension

mikeg516: and you won't beleive what I said...

mikeg516: "thank God I'm not him"

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

lol

mikeg516: she said "you wish you were hime" and I was like "Yeah, I can't beleive I just said that"

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

oh no ...

mikeg516: so I'm not sure what happened but she was breaking up with him

mikeg516: at least she seemed to be

mikeg516: while I'm standing there ....

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

hmm

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

if so I would say try talking to her .. but I duno how u would feel about that  

mikeg516: so she left at about 8 and she said she would be back but I said I would need to go by 9

mikeg516: I had a feeling she was going to be dealing with it way late and I was getting so tired

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

yeah  

mikeg516: I wanted to stay and wait but you know what ... when I say I'm leaving at 9 I leave at 9

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

yeah  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

you should text her and ask if everything is ok  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

see what she says  

mikeg516: oh - I did that

mikeg516: no response

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

oh what she say  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

ohh  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

maybe she is busy fighting with him or something ....  

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

I mean if that is what was going on  

mikeg516: we said we could get together on the boat tomorrow - I'll be there all day

DoNtYoUwAnT2no:

u said that to her ?  

mikeg516: that's what I figure

mikeg516: what did I say ... let me look

mikeg516: I said "Gotta go home. Hope to see you tomorrow"

Wine tasting dinner pictures

I've only got a few minutes so this will be a short entry. Last night I was the only male at a talbe with 10 women. Almost all of them are married or just friends, like Roberta, Janet, Jami and Judy. I still enjoyed myself. Got home late though and now I'll be behind all day.

oh, and I never saw or heard from Coleen yesterday. She never made an appearance at the bar. Not sure why and I wasn't really going to ask. I'm sure I'm not the reason.

Friday on my mind

Tonight starts the weekend. I have a wine tasting and dinner to go to. I've been to these before and they are always fun even if I do end up having a little more than I should. The rest of the weekend shapes up to be fairly quiet. I know I'll see Janet and Roberta but don't know who else. Probably see Coleen beforehand although I know I need to move away from that soon.

Yesterday I rode home on the train with my friend Mariana. I know her since I started at work 15 years ago. That would make her one of my oldest friends. She's been married for about 6 years. Anyway I told her about Coleen and she gave me some very sobering advice. She said that I really need to put forth my position and see if there really is any chance that we could have a real date. She said so it in a way that allows us to be friends no matter what but ask her if she does like me in a sexual way. This is something that I've never done with someone who was unattached never mind someone who appears to really want someone else. I'm not sure I can put myself out there like that even though I know she is right. We talked about it a little and what she suggested was to just tell her without asking for any action from her. Just to let her know that I have intentions. Most of all she said do not use the word "love" as it would be way too scary for her to hear.

It was good for her to say to me. I'll look for an opportunity to make a statement but most likely it won't happen for a while. I hate the idea of asking a question when the answer isn't already obvious.  

It would be nice if I had an advocate who know her and can feel her out a little but I'm alone on an island on this one.

I just realised I hadn't put anything in today

It's late but I need to add something about my day. A day that had so little but can mean so much. Out of nowhere Lisa says she will be in my neighborhood tonight and she can stop by if I'm up for that. Of course it's okay. A nice treat to have Lisa hang out. So we watched the Office together.

So it gave me the chance to clean up my house a bit. I just straighted up and my house looks a little better. Almost good enough to give me some pride.

I swear to God, not 30 seconds before Lisa walked through the door Coleen sent me a text message. And the text message said absolutely nothing. So I ignored it. Normally I would have sent back something but Lisa was walking though the door and I just put the phone down and forgot about it.

So Lisa's visit was pretty uneventful. We just drank a bottle of wine and watched tv. Basic Lisa stuff.

Nothing new to report

I've been fighting the urge to send a cell phone text message to Coleen. I don't even know what the proper thing to do is because I don't really know where I stand with her. I'll bet she wants to hear from me but it's probably better if I don't seem too over anxious. I'm also looking at my checking account balance and realize I'm on a tight budget these next 2 weekends. I bought a monthly train ticket this month rather than the weekly tickets I'd been getting. It's about the same money but it's all at once. So I'll need to be careful. Maybe I need to lay low a little anyway.

My friend Janet is having her kitchen redone starting today. Since she has no place to cook I'll be curious to see how she does making meals. It would be nice if I could have her over for dinner at least once. That's another reason for me to get my house in order.

I had a long IM with Lisa last night. She is all fixated on her bad financial state. Compared to her I'm almost wealthy. But she sounds like she is beginning to recover. Maybe that's a byproduct of us never seeing each other anymore. She may come down and visit me while I work on the boat this weekend. That could be fun especially if it's a nice day. More to look forward to.

 

Another day

Not much has transpired since yesterday. I realize I haven't really mentioned my dad in a while. In January my dad was diagnosed with a cancerous tumor in his colon. At first he didn't want any treatment and wanted to just live out the rest of his life as best he could, which may have been as short as 3 months.. The doctor convinced him that a chemo treatment could prolong his life by at least a year. He has had three treatments with minimal side effects and seems to be doing fine. My mom decided we don't need weekly conference calls to discuss his condition. I spoke to him last Friday and he sounded really good and he and my mom are planning to come up north over the summer. I still need to book a trip for sometime in May. I just wish I knew what to do with Tigger, my cat while I would be away.

Life is full of peaks and valleys and I get so focused on my own crap I can easily forget just how easy I really have it. Even though I don't have anyone special I can call girlfriend or wife I do feel loved. There are so many people who care about me I can actually pick and chose those who I spend my time and energy on. I need to get some order in my life and just reduce the clutter. Getting off my ass is a priority. I will clean my kitchen tonight and tomorrow. My goal is to have a dinner with any of my friends who will come.