Weekend at the beach

Strap yourself in - this is a long entry.  

So get this, Friday night Janet invited me to the beach .... I thought a good idea would be to take my boat and anchor off of Prybles Beach in Glen Cove. So Saturday afternoon I secured a spot just off the beach and dinghyed ashore and hung out with Janet and her friends ... all of whom I now seem to know very well. We just had the best time. We were relaxing in the sun and we all just never wanting it to end. We watched the sunset and finally the cops kicked us out. The only way it could have been better would be if Janet came back to my boat, but she had her son Spencer this weekend and needed to get home. Last thing she said was to be back on Sunday.  

So I want back on board my boat and over nighted right there off of the beach in Glen Cove. It's not real protected but the weather was pretty calm so I had a good night sleep. Janet's friend Julie was at the beach at around 10 a.m. and had an egg, bacon, and cheese sandwich for me. Yummy.  

Janet was back on the beach around 11 and we spent the whole day hanging out again. Could I be wearing her down? Anyway, she never made it on to my boat but we did go for a dinghy ride. We circled it then looked at some of the waterfront homes on Morgan's Island. More money than I will ever have.  

So at 4:30 everyone packed up and was going to picnic at Morgan's Park. Roberta, another friend of Janet's, was there with her daughter and I had sort of said I would be there with some food. This is where I really fucked up.... This girl I had one date with, Tracy, called me. She had her knee 'scoped about 10 days ago and we had been playing phone tag Thursday and Friday. And Sunday I spoke to her and she was pretty upset - mostly because she had been cooped up at home on such a beautiful weekend. I kind of like Tracy and I know she likes me. She works for my friend Joe in the City and Joe had been telling me to not go there as she a little flaky. Actually Joe says she is a lot flaky.  

So here I am with a choice to make. Do I go to the picnic and spend more quality time with Janet and her friends or do I go see Tracy because I can have some alone time with her. I probably made the wrong choise but I told Tracy I would be back at my slip at 6. Tracy said she would get a ride and meet me there.  I had time to shower and change and she shows up .... with her brother! Ugh! And Janet calls me on my cell to see if I might be coming. Ugh! WTF am I doing? I really wanted to hang out with Janet some more and obviously Janet wanted me there too. So what do I do .... I sit on my boat with Tracy and her brother until 11:30. It was actually fun. I told Tracy I would call her and we are kind of lined up for something on Tuesday.  

As for Janet ... she knows I like her tons, but I have NEVER been alone with her ever. I have asked her out to dinner and out for a sail half a dozen times. I really don't think she sees any more than friendship with me. But Thursday I have a sunset cruise scheduled and she said she would come .... so.....    WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!!!   What do I need to do that I am not doing? Should I just try to date them both? Right now that is kind of the plan.  

I also found out that Janet was seeing some guy - Peter ... very young.... like maybe 30. They apparently are over although I don't think that's what Janet wants. This was something I overheard so I may have my facts off a little.    

Oh - yeah and one more thing .... I haven't seen Lisa in 2 weekends. Sorry Lisa but you are just not making yourself available. You are still my "It" girl but if your are not there I need to find my own way.        

Sunset cruise

Last night's little trip was great. I had my cousin Bernadette, and my neice Katie, and my nephew Charlie on the boat. It was a good time. I'm a little sad that my only guests were relatives. Where are all my friends? Barely a puff of breeze but it was a safe relaxing trip. I really enjoyed getting the boat away from the dock. It was a short cruise and we were back at the dock by 10. When we got back we saw Trevor and Iris (I've got to start remembering her name).

Bernadette and I talked about organizing a picnic for September. I've been wanting to make that happen for years. I will need to make some calls. September 10th seems like the most likely date.

I haven't seen Lisa in a week and I was really wishing she could have been there last night, but she was working at the center like she is pretty much EVERY night now. But at 11:30 my phone rang and it was her. It was so nice to hear her voice and made me wish I could go see her but it was so late. She just called to say hello .... made me feel loved even a little. Thank God I had something to talk about other than I was just home watching TV all night. I hope she misses doing stuff with me although her commitment to the center doesn't seem like it will change any time soon. I told her I was going to a picnic on Saunday with Janet and her friends and she said maybe she will come. I wasn't sure if I wanted her to come but now I'm hoping she will.

Another hot day in August

Went swimming in my sister Maryliz' pool last night. So refreshing. Tonight I will have company for a sail on my boat. All relatives I think. I am expecting my nephew and neice and also my cousin Bernadette and her husband Eddie. Also I need to call Eric. I wish Lisa would come too but she will be working late a the center. I miss her but we hardly see each other any more so I'm becoming much less obsessive. And I'm keeping really busy too which helps.

Stuck in the office

So I spent my evening last night just chillin' at home. I kind of needed to do that although I was hoping to hear from Lisa. We were considering getting together to just talk about her sister's recovery. She called me at 11:30 and we both agreed that it was way too late for anything more than a brief phone conversation. She gave me the details on Judi in the hospital. She was still very tired but recovered enough to be angry at the hospital staff.

I told her all about my weekend activities that were mostly spent with Janet.... she asked "So, are you guys dating now?", which I wasn't prepared to respond to. I just said she has someone else - his name is Peter and he is much younger than she is.... about 30 I think. All this is true. I could have made Lisa jealous? Not likely. Still I wonder....

Better news

Good news.... I heard this morning Lisa's sister is doing much better. No longer on the respirator, she is talking, joking, and laughing. I can't go see her as I've picked up a little cold. Still it was great to hear and hopefully she will be going home soon. I really thought she was going to leave us.  

Last weekend I didn't see Lisa at all. We spoke briefly on the phone Saturday night. Judi was still not doing well and she wasn't happy.  

I did see quite a bit of Janet and her friends. Friday night we met in Glen Cove and watched a band play outdoors in the plaza. Then went with her friends Susan and Roberta to Buckrams and get something to eat. While there Janet and Roberta were both getting the attention from this goofy guy Erich. He was paying most of his attentionto to Roberta. After that I made my way to Crabby Dan's. I wanted  to see Karen Rich who bartends there. Janet without Susan and Roberta showed up about 5 minutes later. I guess she left right after me. Then right behind Janet this guy Erich shows up. Obviously Roberta blew him off. So now he's taking his best shot with Janet with me right there. He was about 15 years younger than Janet but I think at first Janet liked the attention. After about 10 minutes Janet walked over to talk to Jimmy and some other people she knew and I was talking to this girl I'd just met, Karen Petrone. Then I turn around and there goes Erich, out the gate... not even sure he said good-bye to Janet. Okay here is the kicker .... I met Janet and Roberta at Prybles Beach on Saturday and found out that Erich sent Roberta a text message on his way home.  

Anyway, Janet left around an hour later and I stayed and gave Karen (Rich - not Petrone) a ride home. Late night. Saturday was Beach, Sunday I again met Janet and her friends at Morgans to see another concert. That was fun but I never got the boat away from the dock. I did have a nice nap on it Sunday afternoon.

Weekend update

To those reading this and are concerned about Judi there is no change to her condition. She's not better or worse. She is still in ICU and still on an incubaiter.

Last night was the worst

Judi is getting worse and worse. Obviously her cancer is progressed to the point where she will not recover. Now the best we can hope for is she gets a little better and has some more time. Every day seems precious now. She is still in ICU and not responding to any treatment. Right now she is on so much morphine she can only barely recognize what's going on.

Last night at 10:30 I went to Lisa's house and she is so upset she was sobbing. I feel so helpless. Words don't come. I want to hold her and tell her it will all be alright but I can't. It's obvious that it's not alright. Her sister is dying and there is nothing we can do or say to change that. Lisa called Judi's oncologist (cancer doctor) and her told Lisa in brutal honesty that Judi is getting the best care available. Judi's cancer has spead to her liver, kidney's and is in the sacks and fluid around her heart. Finally at 1 o'clock her told Lisa he needed to go to sleep and practically hung up on her. She was just crying and crying until 2 a.m. and then I needed to go home. She was probably up all night. I wished I could stay but I was feeling very tired and helpless at that point.

Last night Lisa's other sister sent this out in an email; "Judi needs everyone's prayers right now!  Please pray in Jesus Name for her recovery and for peace for Judi.   Thanks Everybody.  We love you all!   Ellen" I guess that's all we can do.