Monday, July 11, 2005

Sunday - A better day

Plans for Sunday included a day out on the boat with Steve, his wife Shulpa and her friend Amie. I'd met Amie before and I must admit the I do have a little bit of a crush on her. She is a very fair skinned Asian Indian who has a Connecticut accent. I'm not sure what it is that I am attracted too but I think she is very sexy.

So I made it to the boat at 11 and started to clean things up from the night before and they arrived at 12 and we were underway by 12:15. Of course there was a little more wind than I wanted so after Saturday's fiasco I refused to put up sails. I just needed a nice relaxing day. Part of me wanted to impress Amie but I knew if I flipped out that would not leave the impression I wanted.

So we steamed out of Hempstead Harbor toward Bayville. It was a little farther than I wanted to go but I didn't see any other protected anchorages. At about 1 P.M. I got a cell phone call from Lisa. The night before I suggested she should join us but she said she needed to do too much at home. But since it was a 90 degree day she decided to go after all, but of course I was already in the middle of LI Sound so I told her she would have to wait until later. Part of me wanted her there because I love her and always want her there. But I was also glad she wasn't there because I wanted to see if Amie had any interest.  

So we had a wonderful day of swimming off of Bayville and we enjoyed a nice swim even though I thought the water was a little more brown than green. All the rain had made the bacteria level higher than normal. Thoughout the day we had light conversation and in my typically shy way I was more reserved than is normal for me. I didn't really have any one on one with Amie at all. I didn't really feel any energy coming from her toward me. I don't know what I was expecting since I've been single so long I couldn't imagine how I could make anything happen. As usual, I let the day play out without forcing anything.

So after lunch and swimming we pulled up the anchor and started the 1 and a half hour trip back toward home. Everyone was very subdued. I think that is the effect of the sea. Everyone very chatty on the way out and contemplative on the way in. I was enjoying myself and didn't say much either.

We got back to the dock at 6 and took 30 minutes to clean up. We decided to go and have a cocktail at Steamboat Landing. Since I knew the way they would follow. Amie road in the back seat with Steve and Shulpa. I looked at that as a tell.... she really wasn't that interested in me. No biggie. Guess who showed up in the parking lot just as we were heading out .... LISA! I told her to follow us to Steamboat. I wasn't until we got there that I realized how odd this would be.

We hung out for about an hour and I spoke to Lisa a little but really wanted to get some one on one with Amie. It was very wierd.... when I was talking to Lisa I felt like I was ignoring Amie and when I was talking to Amie, Lisa was left alone.

So I split my time as best I could and at the end of the night I asked Amie if we could get together and guess what .... we are! Thursday night we will meet for drinks - kind of. It won't be just us but I did get her cell phone number.

So after they left Lisa and I headed off to get a bite to eat and I downplayed the day as I didn't think we really hit it off and Lisa agrees. It really didn't look like a match. So I am not getting my hopes up at all. But I don't want to just give up and feel defeated.

Saturday mess

Saturday morning I needed to get up a little early so I could get my chores on the boat done. Number one on the list was the dinghy and number 2 was to repair the boat's toilet leak. I stopped at my sister's and shanghi-ed my nephew Charlie to assist me. I needed to keep him busy so I had him inflate the dinghy and insert the flooring. He got bored after an hour. I took him home and my 18 year-old neice Katie and her boyfriend Sean wanted to go on a sail so I said be down at the boat by 4:00 I should be done by then. Of course I wasn't but by 4:30 we did get away from the dock. My friend Eric showed up too. Eric, ugh!

Eric's life seems to be in a downward spiral although to talk to him you wouldn't really know it. He has been out of work for about 6 weeks and doesn't seem to care too much because he hated what he does. He was a commercial insurance underwriter so I have to agree his job was very unexciting. Problem is I think he is just getting stoned pretty much non-stop since he stopped working. I always knew he was pretty into smoking pot and is pretty worthless when he does. Well, he showed up to do some work but when I drove my nephew home he smoked and just crapped out and kept asking "when are we gonna that the boat out". He was really annoying. I had my priorities and needed to finish my work.

I let him influence me and I hurriedly finished fixing my head leak and with Katie and Sean the four of us headed out into LI Sound.  We got out there and there was a pretty good wind and I was a little nervous but I figured I had some capable hands on the boat but I think I may have overestimated what we cound handle. We got the main up pretty easy and were making way pretty well but when we put up the jib the 36' boat heeled over and all kinds of stuff broke loose in the cabin. Katie lost her grip on a line and when I wanted to reef the sails no one really knew what to do. I was looking to Eric to pick up the slack but all he cared about was seeing the wind in the sails. I wasn't about to do any "white-knuckle" sailing so when Katie had trouble with the reefing line and we almost broached the boat I had Eric take the helm and sail into the wind and I immediately took allthe sails in. I was litterally shaking.

Eric wanted to motor out into the sound but all I could see was a building wind and thought better of it. I made the call that we were done. It was the right thing to do. So as we headed in Eric cut a bouy and put us on a sandbar. Just what I needed. I was ready to pitch a fit and maybe I did but I didn't say what I really wanted to say. We raised up the main which heaved the boay over enough to break us loose and we got into the channel. I really have to question Eric reliability now. I thought he was pretty capable but he nearly cost me the whole boating season.

After cleaning up the boat I wanted to go see Janet at The Downtown but by the time I got home and showered it was close to 11 P.M. so I didn't go. Then Lisa called and she and I sat on her steps and had a couple of glasses of wine. I thouroughly enjoy that.... my only non-stress event of the day. I really wanted to see Janet though and I figured I'd go to a free concert the next night anyway.

Been out of the game too long.

I had a roller coaster ride of a weekend. It will be hard to get it all into this so I may take a few enrties to get it all. I had planned why to much for one weekend. Friday night was a surprise party to celebrate my older brother Barry's 50th birthday. Saturday I wanted to do some maintenence on the boat then go to The Downtown to see Rectangle and hang out with Janet. Sunday I had Steve, his wife Shulpa, and her single friend Amie (Ammie?) come out for a day on the boat.

Friday night was rainy so I could only go to the party. I enjoyed myself although I was pretty out of it by 10:30. One of the guest was Gina and her husband Mike. Gina was in Barry's wedding party and we dated briefly for a few weeks after that. I really enjoyed seeing her again and wished she was still single. She looked great. The years have been very kind to her and she hasn't lost any of that terrific sense of humor. She left without saying good-bye which is just as well as I could have said something very inappropriate if she had. The night ended with me going home alone and a little depressed. I doubt I'll get a 50th birthday that good.

 

Friday, July 8, 2005

Weekend plans

I am having Steve and his wife on the boat on Sunday and he is bringing along his wife's friend that I like. Should be interesting.

Tuesday, July 5, 2005

The Fourth of July

Took the entire family out on the boat at about 7:30 for fireworks. This included nephews and nieces. It was far more stessful than I expected. I guess I just need more time out on the water. Seems as though my family has no confidence in me. Especially my sister and mom. Oh, well. We reap what we sow.

Thank God Lisa showed up. She took care of everthing down below. And nephew Charlie was a big help. Still have to do a few things so I need to get down to the boat tonight.

Never heard from Tracy and didn't get a chance to call her. I got a phone number from Nancy although I doubt I'll ever use it.

I didn't see Lisa on Sunday night and I thought she was home, but she apparently went out to see fireworks on Sunday with someone. I'm curious as to who but chose to not ask. She called my early Monday to go sailing and then realized she had a commitment all afternoon. I swear I just want to see her in a bathing suit. I guess I'm a little perv.

Sunday, July 3, 2005

What I did

Friday night was different than I thought it would be. I called Tracy from work and she was in the local bar near the office and I should stop in. So I did. Got there and there were a bunch of people from her office that I had never met but I made myself comfortable and had a nice time. We stayed until about 7 which worked out well as I would still have time to go see my parents then maybe meet Janet at Steamboat by nine.

Well the LIRR put a wrench into that plan. It seems that someone stepped in from of a train which stopped all trains from leaving Penn Station. We all got off the train at 8 o'clock and went back to the office and took a car service home instead. I ended not getting home until well past 10. Called Janet's cell and she was at Steamboat but wasn't staying. So I missed that. Still, I asked Tracy to come out for the fireworks on Monday. She seemed interested. I'll call her and see.

So I went home had one beer and went to sleep early.  It was good thing too as I didn't get a good night sleep on Saturday. I had dinner with Mom abd Dad then as I was driving home I got a call on the cell from Lisa who was buying a bottle of wine and wanted to share it with me. So I went staight there. She hadn't eaten so we also made a side trip so she could get some pizza. We relaxed and drank a 1.5 ltr bottle of merlot. We sat on her from steps and even went for a nice walk. With Lisa I always enjoy the simple things. Just sitting and talking was just fine.

So we finished the wine and decided - like always - we wanted more. So we went to a local place and ordered up 2 glasses of wine. I soon realized I was a little more drunk than I needed to be but she always makes me feel so energized I just went with it. We even had a moment when we hugged which probably started me thinking. So we had our fill and headed back to her house.

So I told her I couldn't drive home and she said I could stay. Of course that means the couch. Still we were sitting on the floor of her livingroom which turned into laying on the floor, which turned into me giving her a massage. I must have been pushing my luck a little as we got into a truth or dare.  I don't remember what questions we asked but I was afraid maybe I went too far. I might have even made a pass, or asked if I could sleep with her... too tired to remember details but I do remember her going into her room and closing the door leaving me to sleep on the couch, as usual. Next morning I left before she woke up.

Friday, July 1, 2005

Weekend Plans

I wish I knew what I should do. Might spend an hour at Steamboat and then go see if Nancy's party is worth while. Last I saw of Janet she said she would be at Steamboat tonight. I'll need to check that out. Of course, Janet just wants to be friends and Nancy is just crazy. Maybe I should call Tracy.

I went out on a fishing boat last night with Joe and his son. That was fun although we didn't catch many fish. It was a nice night on the water.... not much wind. While I was out there Lisa chimed in with a text message. She was looking for some wine after 11. Too bad I was out on the water. I expect I'll see her Saturday.