I spent too much time this weekend getting close to Coleen. It doesn't take much for me to become all infatuated again. It's all me I know but I am just so unable to see the reality when she is in front of me.
I am sitting here wondering why I can't be stronger. Or even why I need to be. I found myself totally hooked into her this weekend after trying not to be for so long.
So here is the scoop. Somehow while I was not in touch with Coleen her and Mark had a serious falling out and her words are she won't see him any more. The details I don't even know but I learned a little from my brother. On her birthday she was with Mark and he took her out and they were in the bar and had a big row about his going home and she was celebrating with her friends. Not sure of what exactly happened but she says she hasn't spoken to him since.
So I want to find a way to state my case. I've had my chances and let them go by. When steel my nerve those are the moments she doesn't want to talk. But my head swims with ideas. I need to not get my ducks in a row. Somehow,