I took Carolyn out to dinner last night. It was a good meal. And that is all it was. My mind is just not right for more that that. I wanted to ask her something about if there can be more for us but I just left it unsaid.
Prior to dinner I went to get my haircut and got some advice from Loni. She seems to think I need to step up and demand to have sex. She makes is so simple and uncomplicated. Then I sit and listen to Carolyn and my ability to make it happen just shuts off.
After dinner we said good night and I sensed a strange moment where Carolyn held me tight but I move in for the kiss and get nothing. To be honest I was tired and just was ready for home. When did a good night's sleep become more important than sex? Is that bad? Am I just accepting what I get? The older I get the less I know.