Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Weekend was a bust

I don't know if I did something but Carolyn kind of blew me off. Twice. Maybe three times. It's hard to tell when she doesn't really communicate. First off, it may even have been my fault.
I spoke to her on Thursday night about making a plan for Friday. I asked that she call me when she was done with work. Now I probably should have called her but then I would seem over anxious so I just tried to be patient. Well, when I didn't hear from her by 7 I just said the hell with it and started to make my dinner. While she never called me she did send a text at about 7:30. I didn't see it until after I'd finished dinner. Texted back and she was shopping. So no plan. I probably messed that up but I thought we had discussed it and she should call me. With that I just let it go. The truth be told this has about run it's course anyway.
I spent Saturday running errands and doing laundry that had piled up. I also made it into the gym, something I know I need to get back into. I kept thinking I would hear from Carolyn, but for some reason she doesn't want to see me. We exchanged text messages and all I get are one word responses. Finally on Monday I called her and she said everything was fine. So I suggested we get together on Monday afternoon. She said I should call because she needs to get her son's school stuff squared away. I called and got nothing back. Yeah, probably coming across as a needy bitch. So I'm sort of not thinking about it. I have plenty of other things to do. But I do have this "co-dependent" feeling. I kind of moped around my house way more than I should have. I never made any alternative plans like I know I should have.
This week I will try to focus on moving on and trying to reconnect with some people I haven't really been spending any time with all summer. That will be an evolving process. I may be spending a lot of time home too.

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